Mythos & Marginalia

life notes; flaws and all


  • a poem will have its way with me

    Finding our direction may take miles or days, or years.

    Detours, disruptions and distractions – no matter how

    purposeful or meaningful as they may be – are certain to

    prolong our progress. It takes time to know. The journey

    is involved. Each step of the path allows reflection. We

    are guided by instinct or instruments, our moral compass

    not often strong. Finding our true destination will take

    years and decades. Or longer. And should I wonder (and

    oh, how I shall) how poetry should get the best of me on a

    bitter winter’s morn. Even on, or especially on, a brighter

    summer’s day where thoughts like common flowers will

    blossom naturally, a poem will have its way with me. Some

    random poem by one of the greats, Billy Collins, has before

    captured both my heart and the times of our lives, as I do.

    I have passed through the 2000s, and the ‘90s before (right

    back through to the early ‘60s). I remember, poetically, how

    it was. Collins himself more articulate than I, although I try.

    A random poem, my daily indulgence. ‘Marginalia’ today by

    Collins. Yes, I too have always been attracted to words or

    messages scribbled haphazardly on the page. A surprise when 

    discovered in a text or library book, and how it stains the page 

    at any stage of life as we know it. Today, page 94 of Collin’s 

    book ‘Sailing Alone Around The Room’ grabbed me and won’t

    let go. The poem ‘Marginalia’ spoke to me. I’ll leave it at that.

  • again

     
    Misplaced memories,
    back and forth, back
    and forth, back and
    forth, like a pendulum.
    Moments measured
    but wasted anyway.
    Who knows how much,
    how far, how fast or
    not swift enough to be
    noticed or remembered.
    The collective fate of
    humanity. Over and over.
    We wake up and do it all
    again and again. Again.
    So, what will we notice
    for ourselves today, if
    not the shifting, if not
    the sway of our time?

  • art of creativity

  • weather or not

    I am so done with winter.

    Yesterday’s snowfall only deepened my contempt for this climate and the particular place I am at this stage of my life.

    It is still March.

    The month of March is one of both indecision and uncertainty. Forget all that ‘in like a lion, out like a lamb’ crap (or the reverse); it’s folklore, at best. This entire month of March continues to creep on sloth-like.

    I have lost my motivation. I slept in this morning. Seasonal depression hovers like consistent cloud-cover.

    Spring, calendrically, is only a few days away. Even then we’ve got to wait until April, at least, for spring showers to wash away all the debris and desolation of this past winter.

    I’m feeling it now.

    It never used to be this way.

    It’s funny how I never remember the cold of winter from my youth. For years, I could not wait for snow to arrive. I could not wait to get out on the ski slopes.

    I, now, simply can’t get nostalgic about frostbite, long johns, or new skis.

    The most exciting thing about this past winter was buying snow tires. Really.

    Does my age have anything to do with my lack of appreciation for winter or is it only the weather?

    Whether it is, or weather or not, this winter becoming a memory cannot happen soon enough.

  • Mondays are just young Fridays

    It is not always stating the obvious; to do so, at certain times, comes across as conceit. Yet, especially in trying times, it is necessary.

    I love me. Three words; including the big one, a word you mostly reserve for others: love.

    Self-love: to appreciate oneself, one’s worth or value, is an important part of being human. It is not always easy for, at times, we do not always feel the way we should. Not always do we hold ourselves in the highest regard, or personal happiness and well-being is not always top of mind. Sadly.

    I know I suffer from periods of doubt, or indifference.

    Pride and vanity can each get confusing. Ego will allow only so much; the id is not always present. And yes, narcissism, is to be avoided at all costs.

    It comes back to value.

    Take some time to recognize what you can most offer yourself. Balance those feelings or thoughts with what you can offer to others. Humanity needs people who care, who feel, and are best able to deal with all this uncertainty.

    First, be certain of yourself. Then show that love. 

    It is necessary, especially in these trying times.