Mythos & Marginalia

2015 – 2025: a decade of days


j.g.lewis

  • pre-dawn confusion

      Awaken the night 
                                                                            feeling a fire,
                          new moon of fortune, new moon desire.
         Headlights randomly spray 
                                                  stray light           in the wake
         of a few restless souls, little left 
                                                                                 to forsake.

       Window cracked slightly, aware of the noise,
     discounting discomfort, confronting a choice.
              A season of change and mysterious ways
              growing weary of colour,
    and 
             tired of the days.

    A breath wholly taken in the good name of fear,
                   exhale in silence, 
                             the silence found here.
    Winter is going, but never soon enough,
    it’s the waiting for the waiting that
                                            makes it so tough.

         Test pattern sheds light on the night’s darkest hour
         before pre-dawn confusion from a much higher power.
         Sanctimonious lessons in a stiff designer suit
                                      no lack of words, she knows what to do.

                           Obey, 
                                      fall in line 
                          or 
                                               fall out of grace,
         Heaven, in her good judgment,
                                                                   is a judgmental place.
    New moon wonder, 
    new moon is now,
                           unconscious thought enlightens somehow.

    To be mindful of a future only makes sense
          stop reviewing past actions in solely past tense.
    Breathe it all in, 
                                 as you listen and learn,
          question your morals and for what you may yearn.

         No dreams for the restless, wandering their way,
         few thoughts for the weary with so much to say.
    New moon, 
    new cycle,      falls into sight
                        dilemmas become clearer when the days become bright.

  • learn by living

    We learn from each other,
    we always have; by example, 
    by mistake, by listening and 
    watching. We learn by living.
    I’m proud of, and thankful for, 
    the women who have taught 
    me and continue to teach me 
    how to live and how to love.
    I am still learning with you.

  • I don’t understand

    I don’t know how
    to forgive myself
    for so many things
    I have not discovered
    and further mistakes
    I will surely make.
    I don’t understand
    certain emotions
    and behaviours, and
    I likely never will,
    but still I can try.

  • something meaningful



    I am not one for prayer.
    I am not sure about hope, several past decisions, or
    the trajectory of my path, but
    I am fairly confident
    we shared something meaningful once.
    That may be enough
    to pull me through this day,
    to help me remember
    we can all get through anything
    when friendship offers what it does, as it is meant to.
    It is greater than a prayer.
    It is the basis for hope.
  • hard to believe

    All of those reminders 
    you seem to ignore. To-do lists 
    and sticky notes, a calendar full 
    of times and dates and places 
    you need to be. 
    Easy to see. Hard to believe. 
    A schedule filled with time 
    that is never yours. 
    You do what you do, as 
    often as you can, in days 
    made up of meetings, some only 
    about the meetings 
    you just had. 
    Productivity has a purpose 
    lost in endless days. 
    Performance has a habit of
    getting lost along the way.
    It is not about the time, but 
    only the time you get. 
    It’s never what you remember, 
    but what you seem to forget.