I keep a little notebook tucked in the front pocket of my packsack. Actually, I have a selection of small notebooks in a selection of bags, and a couple of spare pads on my desk. While I keep a daily journal — and always have a notebook on the go for reminders, poems and observations — the pocket-sized scratch pads are there should I come across a random thought, idea, or phrase that needs to be written down. Everything needs a place to go. I write every damn day. Sometimes it involves hours of composing (or editing) at my computer, other times it is playful poetry in a park. Often times it is sitting in a coffee shop; as it is today, where I am lamenting my neglect in packing my pencil case. Like the small notebook in the front pocket of my packsack, I always keep a spare pencil (or pencil stub) with every bag in my possession; you never want to be without a pencil. You never know when something needs to be written down. Part of my process, my practice, or my purpose, is taking notes. Notes become poems, essays, chapters, letters, or simply remain notes on the nonsense we all encounter. For me, writing provides time to make sense of the madness. Writing, for me, provides clarity. Does it become any clearer if you take the time to write it down?
It is not past tense. I have a mother. How can I say she is no longer with me when I feel her light most days, but especially today. It is more than DNA. Everything I know about compassion, forgiveness, and generosity, are learned behaviors. I had a wonderful teacher. Still I make mistakes and they are my own. I believe she would understand. It is what mothers do.
A note from afar, a note from a friend, something in the mail that’s not a bill, or a reminder, or a pizza menu. Correspondence. A surprise, something personal and appreciated. Snail mail, you get less and less in this age of instant. Too many people are too busy to drop a note to let you know what’s going on. It takes time. Of course, an e-mail is immediate but it does not have the same effect as a letter, or it will get lost in all that clutter and confusion in your inbox. Snail mail is an unexpected smile. Send a letter to someone today, just because. It may take a while to get there, but some words are worth waiting for.
I am trying. to look for colour in a black and white world where everything seems grey, muted, tired, or threadbare. I’m trying to be optimistic. Even the tulips are trying to shed some light over the cool, wet earth. Even they have taken time to bloom. Even I took my time to notice.