Who can you blame?
Are the feelings unjust when a decision is a matter of knowing you must find fault or favour with the ill winds of change?
It is never enough to simply rearrange plans or predicaments. It is like making a prediction of all my flaws with my faith as fractured or fragile as it is, or has been.
Far easier to see what I haven’t been doing.
03/24/2023 j.g.l.
We tire of unpredictable weather, the damp morning chill, wet socks and lost mittens. Winter keeps reminding it is not through with us.
We have suffered long enough.
The streets are tired and dirty and the time change only makes things darker in the morning.
We need a brighter view.
We need, now, the renewal that comes with spring.
03/20/2023 j.g.l.
Progress comes less from planning than participation.
Dreams and wishes require action and attention.
Start moving.
03/19/2023 j.g.l.
I'm like a pencil;
sometimes sharp,
most days
well-rounded,
other times
dull or
occasionally
broken.
Still I write.
j.g. lewis
is a writer/photographer in Toronto.
At The Time
She, she might not even notice
the beauty she hosts. She
is too busy,
caring, shouldering
responsibilities
others
are less bothered with.
She says she is lost
I am lost too.
It may not be
the same kind
of lost
or we may
show it or feel it
differently
after all, she is a She and I am a He.
She may not even know, in fact
might not care,
that I
know, her beauty.
I’ve not said it, not in the way
she needs to hear,
the way she needs to be seen.
I said I am empty. It’s not the kind
of empty,
the one devoid
of anything substantial,
but it is an empty
that means there is space
to fill.
I didn’t say it.
I didn’t say it
because I am a He and she is a She
and
we might have tried, but I didn’t enough
and God, she was brave and I
was unknowing and honest,
and frightened.
Yes, I was scared (but I didn’t say that)
and rather than say
I just let it go away.
Because she was that She, and I
didn’t wish to be
just another He.
I knew
she deserved more
than ever I could offer,
at least then, and I didn’t say enough.
At the time.
We all are
fighting time.
She questions her age, and I doubt mine too
and
she doesn’t know her beauty
but I certainly do,
So, seven days before I leave
we spent an evening
reading poetry
talking
taking the time.
Still I didn’t say it, because
she was She,
and I
was just me.
©2015 j.g. lewis
